I Remember That You Love Them, Even More Than I Do.

It’s not until faced with living apart from my two oldest children, that I realize how difficult it is to REALLY trust God as a mother. I know I want to trust God; that He knows my children better than I; that He loves them more than I, but have to admit it has become a growth point for me-actually living out those truths.  It seemed a little easier when I knew as night fell, all my children would be home.  Why is it so easy to fear?  I’m working on living in the reality of God’s power and love FOR my children.  When we are away from each other, I miss them.  That will never change.  When we are away from each other, I can’t be the one who knows what they need, when they need it, and fill that need.  I am tempted to fear.  That CAN change.  Even as a mother (though it seems like a great excuse), I don’t have to fear.  I have a God who loves them, even more than I do. Here are lyrics to the song I’m singing to myself.

Lord, I made a promise that I’d do my best,
to give your love and care to these precious gifts
But somewhere along the way, as the days turned to years
I began to wonder when I’m gone, who would calm their fears

Will you pour your love and mercy on my children today
Will you guide and intervene as they walk the narrow way
Will you wrap your arms around them and shelter them too
Cause I’ve forgotten that you love them,
even more than I do

I remember sounds of laughter, the joy of learning something new
how proud I felt to see them grow and begin their search for truth
But now that we’re apart and I can’t hold them close
I remember that you, the Giver, are the one who loves them most

I know you’ll pour your love and mercy on my children today
You will guide and intervene as they walk the narrow way
You will wrap your arms around them, and shelter them too
Oh, I remember now, that you love them,
even more than I do.
You love them more than I do